Talking More

The following I found when I blew the dust off the drafts... I apparently had meant to say more but rereading it today I think it can stand on its own. Whether you're fighting the monster named porn or not, it's applicable. God often uses our battles to grow us in Him. After all, isn't that the very point of fighting? To fight the enemy and grow in Christ... ?

from the journal - circa 12.24.15

I promised to talk more. About this. About pornography.

And I haven't so far.

So this post is for you, dear fighters. And this is particularly for those who stand cheering and fighting beside the fighters. This is for the wives or the husbands, the girl friends or the boyfriends, the moms and the dads, the kids, the mentors and the friends.

Maybe I haven't written more on the subject because it hurt so bad the first time to type that word. Maybe because it's awkward and our society doesn't like talking about it. Our society as in my good, conservative, Christian world. Maybe because it's so deeply personal I couldn't hardly type it a second time. Maybe it's because it was something I wanted resolved right away.

Oh sure, I didn't think it was going to be resolved any time soon. I knew stuff took time. But I didn't understand it can take ages. I knew I was weak and it would take God giving me strength. But I didn't know just how much strength for how long He'd have to give. I knew He could make all things right but I didn't know that sometimes He first chooses to give you the peace to adapt and go on with the rest of life in the in between stage.

But He does.

Because God is way bigger than even our comprehension of how big He is.

So maybe it takes way longer than you think to conquer that monster called porn. But maybe God has a few other battles in mind for you to conquer meanwhile. Like growing in your relationship with Him.